放肆又何妨～

    The coming of 2010 is a new era to me, yes, brand new. 

    I've finished improving a quite important part of myself, though it took me approximately a whole year. Now it's time to spread my wings and fly. I know I've been lagging behind, in the perspective of money, love, and mental maturity as well. However, I'm changed. I know this time it'll be permanent. I've got enough strength to stand on my own feet now, well, even if I fail the test I know I can survive well in this society cuz basically I know what I can and what I can't do. Nice thing isn't it?

   Many many times I regret not being able to come to this state of mind sooner( I suppose men 'should' mature after they join the army). Anyway I finally find my way and settle my mind. Old, right, I admit. I made mistakes, maybe some are really bad, yes, true. I suffered from pain...ya, but who never does?  But I'd say those things are valuable--- all helps me to get more matured.

   For two or maybe three weeks I can't concentrate on my study. This is going to an end after this weekend. Five and a half month countdown--- about 165 days to know what my life will be like.

   I shall win! No doubt about it! No "if"s or "but"s, I will prove I've made a right decision.