Nearly 30yrs as I am now, the same old problem kept haunting me like a ghost. I have to admit that I haven't really tried to solve that stuff till I'm somehow trapped. During these months I discussed it with friends and sometimes my mother. Except my mom, friends always started with that same old question which, is my major concern, and, to an extent, a frightful thing I can't fully handle.
Everyone begins like this:
"Hey, buddy, what do you plan to do now?" with sincere care, people ask.
"Well, I am, umm.. preparing for a test, u know...and u know I have good English, maybe I can be..yah, like translator or editor, as I was before...sometimes I think of some trading companies, some of them may need someone skilled in English but I've never in that field before...and maybe teaching, as I was trained to be a teacher" Everyone can see I just have no real direction. And that's why I came to you guys for help.
Now I realized a painful but true enough root still lies in me. That is: I never want anything strong enough.
If I were a traveler, I may randomly choose to go north, saying "for the mountains. According to someone, the view is spectecular there." I set off for some time and see a wide river ahead. It seems dangerous and difficult to cross it over, and then I decide to turn east. "Well, since to visit the gorgeous mountain is not easy...". Later, difficulties appear in other directions, too, and I finally got lost.
Now I must adjust myself to overcome difficulties for things I want. To really want something, willing to get it at any cost. As I knew , most of the time I can overcome difficulties but I just choose to evade. If I could not aim at a target and willing to suffer for it, I will end up with nothing. No matter to the south, north, east or west, the very thing is I have to be much more preserverant, and believe the fruit will be much more than the cost.
Everyone begins like this:
"Hey, buddy, what do you plan to do now?" with sincere care, people ask.
"Well, I am, umm.. preparing for a test, u know...and u know I have good English, maybe I can be..yah, like translator or editor, as I was before...sometimes I think of some trading companies, some of them may need someone skilled in English but I've never in that field before...and maybe teaching, as I was trained to be a teacher" Everyone can see I just have no real direction. And that's why I came to you guys for help.
Now I realized a painful but true enough root still lies in me. That is: I never want anything strong enough.
If I were a traveler, I may randomly choose to go north, saying "for the mountains. According to someone, the view is spectecular there." I set off for some time and see a wide river ahead. It seems dangerous and difficult to cross it over, and then I decide to turn east. "Well, since to visit the gorgeous mountain is not easy...". Later, difficulties appear in other directions, too, and I finally got lost.
Now I must adjust myself to overcome difficulties for things I want. To really want something, willing to get it at any cost. As I knew , most of the time I can overcome difficulties but I just choose to evade. If I could not aim at a target and willing to suffer for it, I will end up with nothing. No matter to the south, north, east or west, the very thing is I have to be much more preserverant, and believe the fruit will be much more than the cost.
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